Under Construction

If I could put caution tape over this site I would.  I thought about calling this blog “Streams of Consciousness,” which would go with my love of psychology, and describe pretty accurately the way I often operate: thinking out loud.  Hmmm…that would have been another appropriate title, one I’m sure I would’ve most definitely gotten an “Amen!” from Amber on.  So why did I title my very first blog “Under Construction?”  Because that’s the perpetual state I am in.  Physically, mentally, emotionally, and most importantly spiritually I am a work in progress.  No part of me is perfected.  Only some parts of me are whole, and those are with scars.  I am continually broken, and put back together again through various means of life to become “conformed to the image of Christ.”  As much as my impatience sometimes causes anxiety and distrust in God, it’s all about the process.  Waiting, pain, joy, frustration, hurt, disappointment, fulfillment, confusion, peace, rest, desperation, love, growth, maturity, brokenness, healing, and so much more is all in the process, not the end.  Thus the caution tape you must envision over this site.  Why I feel compelled to share this with you, inspite of fear of what you might think, or how you might see me, I’m not sure.  It’s a part of the process God is working in me to trust Him in my being vulnerable.  Let it be what He wills as the process continues…